well, i’ve done it.
i officially put in my resignation from my first big-girl job. it was a very stressful event to be honest. if you know me in “real life”, then you would know that i am a big planner. i have a plan for everything. i find such comfort in making lists and schedules and even organizing the events of my day by time (don’t let this make you think that i am organized in any other way – laundry, cleaning, etc….because i most certainly am not). so, in my normal fashion, i had a plan for this momentous occasion….which got completely thrown down the shitter.
i had taken a few days off from work mainly to use up my vacation time before it went to waste, but more importantly to relax and think through how i was going to go about telling my two bosses i was quitting. you might also need to know that my bosses are polar opposites so i needed to prepare two different approaches to relay the message. anyways, somewhere between lounging at starbucks and laying out by the pool in the first day of my mini vacation, i decided i was actually not going to think about my resignation at all. not for one second. i would worry about it on thursday evening after my first day back at work and be prepared to walk in friday morning, guns’a'blazin! i wanted to fully enjoy my vacation time without planning a single thing and that’s exactly what i did.
sounded great….until thursday morning when i got back to the office, i found out my boss was going on vacation for 10 days….and was leaving on FRIDAY.
all of a sudden, i’m in a frenzy on thursday, completely unprepared, and forced into putting in my resignation a day early. long story short, i spent the whole day not doing any actual work, but stressing and sweating and preparing a speech that sounded more idiotic the more i looked at it.
‘it’s been amazing to work for you but’…no that sucks.
‘it’s with mixed emotions that i must resign’…..obviously not.
‘i hate this place and i can’t wait to get out!’….calm down, sarah.
it took me until 3:30pm to get the courage to walk into that door.
but i did it! that was exactly 2 weeks ago and i only have 6 days and 4.5 hours until i am officially unemployed (obviously counting down). i won’t get into why i quit just yet. that’s a big adventure i am working on and i feel like it’s not really happening until everything is set in stone. hopefully more to come on that subject!